A different race
As a woman runner, I put my safety and well-being at the forefront. I never run at night unless my darling accompanies me, and I’m even leery to run alone early in the morning. I stay on well-traveled trails, and though I often run with my iPod, I am always aware of my surroundings.
While all of my precautions are common sense stuff, the true test comes when running in an unfamiliar city. This past weekend I was in Philadelphia for a personal chef conference, and I was also scheduled to do an 8-10 mile run. After consulting the GoPhila website, I decided the Schuylkill River Trail would be ideal; not only did it remind me of our local Burke-Gilman — a well-traveled, runner-friendly trail offering incredible views — it appeared to be within a couple miles from my hotel.
Although the route certainly looked safe, I emailed a local runner’s group to ask if there were any concerns (call me Nervous Nellie). I never got a reply but figured I could ask the hotel concierge. I also decided to run sans iPod.
Due to a travel snafu I didn’t arrive in Philly until 2 a.m., which meant I’d be starting my run late (the weather report said the humidity would be in the 80s, so I had wanted to get an early start). But by 9 a.m. I was ready to go and stopped at the concierge desk for directions. Seemed simple enough: turn left outside the hotel, right on 17th, follow 17th until the Ben Franklin Expressway (the only diagonal street), which would take me to the Philadelphia Art Museum and the Schuylkill Trail — an estimated 2 mile trek. He asked if I wanted to take a map with me but I declined (I didn’t have any pockets and would already be carrying my hotel card key).
I stepped out the front doors and was immediately hit with a wet blanket (figuratively, of course; I had forgotten what humidity felt like!). Garmin took forever to locate the satellites, so I took off before it could register. The sidewalks were teeming with people making their way to work, but I managed to dodge around them. At one point I came to what appeared to be a diagonal street, however, the sign said “Arch Street,” NOT the Ben Franklin Expressway. So I continued along 17th.
Here’s where judgment factors in. At what point do you determine the surroundings to be less than safe? When you see old, somewhat dilapidated houses with overgrown yards? If that were my only criteria, I wouldn’t run by my own house! When you hear reports of dangerous activity in the area? I have to be cautious even on my beloved Greenlake trail (a woman was sexually assaulted during a morning run several years ago). When you see homeless people? We often see them sleeping in the grassy areas by the lake, and I even found a man wrapped in a blanket sitting on my front porch one morning (I swear I live in a safe neighborhood!).
Or — and this is the toughest to admit — is it when the majority of people you see don’t look like you?
I grew up in liberal New England and was taught to respect ALL people, regardless of their race or ethnicity. Problem is, I never had much of a chance to test that philosophy. I grew up in northern Connecticut, which is about as white bread as they come. Maine, where we summered? Please! From what I can tell, not only do few people of color live there, you rarely see them among the hordes of tourists. Alaska? Aside from the native Alaskan Indian population, there’s little cultural diversity. Even in the most diverse cities I’ve lived in — Yakima and Seattle — people of color tend to congregate in certain neighborhoods. Neither seems as racially and culturally integrated as say Atlanta, Chicago or New York.
You tend to fear what you don’t know, but to fear someone, or even to just be leery of them, based on the color of their skin is not only irrational, it’s plain wrong. But unfortunately it’s all too common. The movie “Crash” depicted this marvelously; in the opening scene you see two young African American men walking the streets in an upscale Los Angeles neighborhood. One of them notices how most of the other pedestrians — particularly the women — would cross the street to avoid them, clutching their purses at their side. He rails against this racial prejudice; even though they’re dressed like any other college student out for an evening walk, they’re feared because they are black. (Ironically, just when you begin to empathize with them they pull the rug out from under you and steal a car at gunpoint, thus perpetuating the stereotype). I would never consider myself a purse-clutcher, but I have to admit to making snap judgments when my safety is concerned.
So here I was running in what was now a residential neighborhood — bopping along in my bright orange shorty skort and blonde ponytail — beginning to wonder if I was on the right track. Garmin still hadn’t registered, but I was about 13 minutes into the run (which would mean I had traveled at least a mile and a half). As I ran past people sitting on their front stoops (none of whom looked like me) I tried my best to put on my “city girl” face: “Don’t mess with me. I know what I’m doing and where I’m going.” (I’m sure I fooled no one). I ran strong and tall, making brief eye contact and nodding hello to everyone I passed. Not once did I feel threatened, but when the sidewalk started getting more and more broken up, I decided to head over a couple of blocks to the main arterial.
To assuage my guilt for letting those feelings creep in I forced myself to continue in what I thought was the right direction. I figured if anyone did try to attack me, 1) I carried nothing of value other than my Garmin, 2) I could probably outrun them, and 3) even if I couldn’t, I’d most likely gross them out with my profuse sweat. At one point I noticed I was running past a university, which put me at ease. Garmin finally connected to the satellites, so I could now tell how far I’d gone. At a little over 2 1/2 miles into the run, with no Schuylkill trail in sight, I decided to turn around. The humidity was unbearable and I wanted to get back to the hotel in time to shower for my luncheon. I stayed on the main arterial all the way back.
Later that afternoon I grabbed the map to show my roommate, who’s familiar with Philadelphia, where I’d run. I asked, “Where’s Temple University?” as that was the university I had passed. Her response? “Oh, you DON’T want to run there.”
D’oh! So much for good intentions.
Thing is, I NEVER felt like I was in danger. There was nary a menacing look or harsh word. Heck, I didn’t even get a catcall (which quite honestly hurt my feelings; my skort WAS pretty darn cute). In fact, I can’t recall experiencing a friendlier city than Philadelphia. Everyone was so polite and helpful; it really lived up to its name as the “city of Brotherly Love.” But everyone I shared my story with agreed: north Philly is not the best place for a woman to run alone in.
So, would I run that route again? Doubtful, but it has more to do with the fact it wasn’t scenic in the least. The next day my roommate and I walked to the Schuylkill trail, stopping to run up the steps in front of the Philadelphia Art Museum ala “Rocky” (I would have sung the theme song while doing so, but the Rocky statue has been temporarily moved for museum renovation). It’s a beautiful trail; one I hope to run again someday.
August 17th, 2007 at 6:17 pm
great post. & one i can totally relate to as i just spent time out of town running in unfamiliar places. namely, running 8 miles from a truck stop — i don’t even know what town i was in. i’m not sure what state i was in, come to think of it. then, there was the run i did from my childhood home – an idyllic run route, to say the least & when i returned, my sister decided to tell me about the woman who was abducted by landscapers, thrown in their truck, gang raped & tossed back out on the road … she crawled her way to the main road where no one stopped to help & she finally dragged herself into a church. now – it was & is indeed a beautiful, scenic route … and i wouldn’t NOT run it because of what happened a few years ago – but it heightens your awareness … that terrible things can happen in even the waspiest of white bread communities. i just bought pepper spray today because i am getting creeped out by my solo 4:30 am runs – i thought it might behoove me to be better prepared. i think its good to be aware of your surroundings & ok to think you may not be in the safest place … better safe than sorry. now, just to ensure i don’t spray myself in the face angie-style with the spray & i should be good to go!
August 18th, 2007 at 10:16 am
Great post. I really admire your honesty about your feelings.
And Crash is a fantastic movie for approaching this subject so honestly and cleverly (just like you!)
August 18th, 2007 at 5:58 pm
Welcome home, Betsy. You were wise to be cautious in an unfamiliar area, but I can also appreciate the guilt that goes with the thought process. Have you lived in Seattle long enough to feel guilty about noticing that the faces were different than your own? Running tall and strong while nodding and smiling seems like the perfect way to convey the message that you respect the people you meet, and that you expect them to respect you, too. The problem being people who do not respect others, and you really can’t tell who they are by the way they look, or the neighborhood they live in.
I loved your reference to the movie Crash. It is without a doubt the most interesting and thought provoking film I have seen in years.
August 20th, 2007 at 10:19 am
As a fledgling African American female runner, I appreciate your honesty and candor. I happen to live in Charleston, SC, and I am often given looks by ALL because we don’t see many AA women running in this area. I’m hoping to start a trend. My boyfriend lives in an upper middle class neighborhood three miles from the beach, and I’m often nervous running there because I’m don’t want to make the non-minorities nervous. LOL. You handled things with dignity and grace, and like the previous poster mentioned, you respected the people around you. That is the best we can do from day to day. And thanks for referencing my favorite movie of all time.
August 20th, 2007 at 1:54 pm
Thank you DJ for your kind words and for stopping by. And best of luck with your running? Do you have a blog?
August 21st, 2007 at 11:12 am
I think that nodding at the people you passed was smart. Not only did you show respect, but you also made it, I think, more likely for those people to help you if you needed it. Very thought-provoking post.
August 22nd, 2007 at 11:18 am
I often have the same concerns but when I quickly check to see what I have of value in my possession I end up thinking I would probably fight to the death rather than lose my garmin. I really would get pretty vicious if someone threatened to make me complete a run without my stats.
August 27th, 2007 at 11:56 am
I do have a blog, but it’s pretty boring. you can check out divaontherun @ blogspot. I don’t think anyone reads it but my boyfriend. LOL.
I’ve been on the road for work, so I apologize for just getting back to your message. Love your posts.
August 29th, 2007 at 9:26 am
Next time you’re in Philly, you should shoot me an email. Ohhh… I’m so sorry you ended up in North Philly. Not the prettiest part of the city and not somewhere I’d feel good running. But I am so glad that you didn’t have and out and out BAD experience. I am native to the Philadelphia area (more the suburbs) and have been running in and around the city for several years now. I love this city – it really is a great place to live and run. Good luck in your upcoming marathon!
August 29th, 2007 at 4:20 pm
Thank you Rebecca! I absolutely loved our walk down to the Schuylkill. And thank you for stopping by!